If you had asked me ten years ago what kind of marriage I wanted, I would have described something steady and kind, a life where two people stood shoulder to shoulder, sharing burdens, celebrating wins, and comforting each other through the losses. I grew up watching my parents do exactly that. They weren’t glamorous or wealthy, but they were partners in a way I always admired.
I thought I had found that when I married Paul. He was charming, funny, and patient—at least in the early years. We were both teachers when we met, working at the same public high school.
He taught history, I taught literature. We fell into an easy rhythm: joint lesson planning, post-school coffees, staff potlucks where he made people laugh, and I quietly tried not to blush too obviously at his confidence. When we got married, I thought I was stepping into a partnership built on mutual respect.
But somewhere along the way, maybe after our first daughter was born, or maybe after the second, things changed. And slowly, painfully, I realized that while I was giving everything to keep our little world together, he believed he was the only one doing any real work. Our house wasn’t big, but it was full of baby toys, laundry piles, unfinished art projects from our girls, and stacks of papers waiting to be graded.
I had taken a leave from teaching after our second child, Mira, was born. Childcare was expensive, and I wanted to be present for the early years. On paper, it was the right decision.
But the unspoken rule that settled over our home was that because I was home, everything else became my job. The cooking. The dishes.
The cleaning. The bills. The laundry.
The homework. The scheduling. The birthdays.
The appointments. The endless invisible work that held our lives together. At first, I thought it was temporary, that once he understood how much it all took, he’d pitch in.
But instead, his attitude shifted. Whenever he came home from work and saw something undone, a basket of clean clothes still unfolded, dinner running late, toys scattered across the living room, he would sigh dramatically. “I thought you said you were going to take care of things today.”
Or, “Must be nice to sit around all day.”
Or the one that sliced the deepest: “I work.
You… do whatever this is.”
I tried explaining. I tried listing everything I did in a day. I tried asking for help, gently at first, then desperately.
He always waved me off. “You’re overreacting,” he’d say. “You’re home all day.
How hard can it be?”
Those words replayed in my mind on loop. How hard can it be? The slide into exhaustion wasn’t dramatic.
It was the slow, grinding kind, the kind you don’t notice until you realize you’ve become someone you barely recognize. I woke up tired. I went to bed tired.
My body ached; my mind buzzed; my patience thinned. But the worst part was the loneliness carrying everything while the person who was supposed to care the most dismissed it all as nothing. When I tried to tell Paul I wasn’t feeling well headaches, dizziness, and chest pressure, he rolled his eyes.
